catharsis

new blog.

2006-04-23T22:10:00.000-05:00

so basically since now that i own eddyfong.info and have webhosting, i may be switching to wordpress, but not wordpress.com. i will be installing wordpress on my own server =]. and tweaking it. my current problem is that the setup is not as convenient as wordpress.com's =[. but i shall work at it!

blog improvements

2006-04-23T13:31:00.000-05:00

thinking of incorporating other tags? i've kinda started using technorati. and back in the day =] i knew it was really good.. but then i heard it kinda went downhill. like slashdot. sooo. not sure. but now that i'm looking at it.. wordpress uses its tags with technorati tags =].. so maybe... Categories, Tags, and WordPress Those of you using WordPress, you have the luxury of both worlds, visibly

playday =]

2006-04-23T01:45:00.000-05:00

whoa.. day of fun. sooo freaking awesome. sorry no esoterica; brief summarization: jcl with julie... breakfast/lunch or whatever you call it. anyways.. basically.. just.. foooood. and then.. picking clothes out.. while she browses my music and makes fun of me =[.went absa paintballing. in shobit's car, drove about 1 hr, four-five games.. got nailed in the head. couple other places. crawled

Pyrrhic scheduling

2006-04-21T22:31:00.000-05:00

after all that motherfreaking hard work, i got shafted. registration @ 21st @ 11am. i got into like 3 classes. they were like BA 324 and MKT337. classes no one else took. freaking FIN and LEB. I HAVE TO HAVE FINANCE. must must must. i need it for FAP. anyways classes. maybe next year my registration will kick ass =] bbq & swimming @ lake travis? pacement park =] it was BEAUTIFUL TODAY. perfect

what a day

2006-04-20T20:34:00.000-05:00

soooo through and through. today.. nothing big at all.. soo i guess.. laws of attraction. in absa, we had a family night. it was "absa's next top model"... mucho fun. basically we were given a piece of cloth.. and some number of minutes.. and we had to make something fashionable. wow.. lots of hot work. we had albert dress up.. in a j-lo like dress. it was insane. lots of fun. hm.. i think to

customer service.

2006-04-20T00:12:00.000-05:00

i freaking hate chipotle. well. for lunch, because my apple interview was @ einstein's on the drag, i went to eat at chipotle. the guy not only did not listen to me and nearly put the wrong meat, but then he chastised me for not saying chicken. although i said it only 6 times and the lady next to me even backed me up. freaking asshole. and then when it came to the condiments time, not only did

chaotically peaceful.

2006-04-19T01:26:00.000-05:00

woke up. chi 604 - test 83. shit =[. quiz bombed. had to stay after cause the prof didn't get our "gubo shi wo"/sam i am skit. but we explained it. dorm - killing those damn popup ads. lunch@jcl with natasha.. econ 304k.. no idea. except he was being hypocritical ba 101s. talking about business ethics.. so many people have none.. atrium - chill, chinese hw, talked to lotsa people. absa consulting

popup problem.

2006-04-18T09:08:00.000-05:00

it was brought to my attention by mr. angry that i had popups. i honestly had no idea. but now that i do, rest assure i will quickly find and eliminate this pest. i put a bunch of counters once to see which was the best.. well.. forgot to take them off =[.. and one of them is causing ads.. so here we go... eliminated performancing. this one sucks.eliminated shinystat. i kinda like this one, not

dear angel,

2006-04-17T23:16:00.000-05:00

i'm sorry, _________. i dont know why. even now.. i still feel guilty. it still hurts me. i cant.. seem.. to.. forget.. or get past this. i'm sorry for everything i didnt do. i'm sorry for everything i did do that wasn't good enough. i'm sorry for everything that was good enough and wasn't better. i'm sorry, i'm so sorry. i never meant or wanted to hurt you. but i know i did. there's nothing i

starcrossed life.

2006-04-17T21:10:00.000-05:00

i know people read this. please leave comments? thanks to those that do =]. yesterday blew - nothing went right. laundry went haywire. no fabric softeners. lost a sock? lost my keys. misprinting so many things.. chinese speech is meh. soo.. i made my own day. i went out and got a freaking router. cost me $15, was refurbished by damnit i wanted one =]. it's a damn good feeling - spoiling yourself

on finding a girl.

2006-04-16T08:11:00.000-05:00

on finding a girl: goodness. stop telling me to get a gf. all of you. argh. I'm trying already?! at least i think i am. but i mean.. it's so freaking hard to just find a damn good girl these days. that doesnt dress like a hoe, is responsible and dependable, and is a definite thinker. why a thinker? cause then we can read books and argue =] and be witting and do point and counterpoint.. and oh god

cys + bbq

2006-04-16T00:17:00.000-05:00

oh god, today kicked so much ass. happy birthday to leslie kao. and.. oh today.. amidst massive long driving.. i will start writing about the big things in my day. cys 3 on 3 basketball tournament - oh man.. brings me back.. to like my old school days. bad ass.. 50 teams.. and lotsa fun.. i saw leslie, cindy, eli, jocelyn, stephanie [who makes fun of me] and so many others.. oh damn.. i saw

bussing home

2006-04-14T20:17:00.000-05:00

RLM - met june, passed off papers. chi604 - got out "early". haha.. well good class day i think. =] advising - with karen landolt. she didn't seem very receptive, but she signed them. meh.. then.. packing in my dorm.. and i.. freaking.. missed the 11am bus. sooo... chipotle with cindy and yun-jun?.. her roommate.. haha.. ate at chipotle, talked, was alot of fun.. =].. then cindy went to work at

late night snack

2006-04-14T01:22:00.000-05:00

ramen again. chicken this time. ahhhhh the college life. if only i could afford wendy's. freaking 1.29 dine-in dollars and 0 bevo bucks. damnit =[

work like hell

2006-04-13T20:36:00.000-05:00

chi604 - quiz. bombed like afghanistan. =[ haha soo politically horrible. anyways.. then ssb. - made a doctor's appointment. picked up some forms. then.. dorm chill. hw? quick snack @jcl. then.. went with abed? calvin? feras? to hogg auditorium to get russell peter tickets. whoo.. but they might discount it soon. so didnt buy. just waiting =]. then.. to econ 304L - where we watched videos. and..

只對你說

2006-04-13T12:47:00.000-05:00

只對你說詞：林俊傑作曲：林俊傑 It’s been so long baby So many hours, so many days 我心裡這句話還是想對你說 "sarangheo" (Korean) 站在寂寞的舞台上燈光下拖著自己的影子音樂重複我們共同的憂傷不是每一次的演唱就可以淡忘明天沒有你 In my heart we'll never be apart 殘留手上的香味提醒我在數位相機裡留下的承諾每一封簡訊傳出的思念都對你說 "sarangheo" means I love you 代表著我離不開你每分每秒每一個聲音只有你撒嬌會讓我微笑 "sarangheo" 只對你說 I will love you and forevermore 我答應 baby you will see 每一個我都屬於你殘留手上的香味提醒我在數位相機裡

what is wrong with me?!?!

2006-04-13T10:55:00.000-05:00

surrounded in a culture where loving god is accepting his gifts, does this mean when I'm down I should just pray to god? what the heck... is it fair to put all my wants into gods hands and make him a santa? has anyone ever seen bruce almighty? the problem with people is that they keep looking to god for help. they really should be looking in themselves. that movie is one of my faves. not cause I

new domains =]

2006-04-12T20:20:00.000-05:00

need to host websites/files and/or send things? tell me. i've got way more space than i need. eddyfong.info eddyfong.org eddyfong.net are all mine. but who the f' took eddyfong.com =[. arghhh. haha.. i also got 4 other ones. and webhosting for 6 months for < $30. gonna be h4x04!. anyways.. soo.. chi604 - i forgot to mention yesterday, got test back 93.5 today.. got tuesday quiz b ack. 98.5 damn

apple interview.

2006-04-11T22:58:00.000-05:00

rawr. hahaha.. what a day. meh.. chi 604. quiz, rocked it? maybe.. apple interview. i think it went rather well. not quite sure. two jobs? woohoo. dorm - hw, etc, ubca, more work. mis hw. etc. welch - econ, saw our group vid. totally kicks mucho ass. boring class. just chilled. econ prof doing a survey on digital cameras.. next class: 5 bucks for 10 minutes. soo i signed up. ba 101s..

late night ramen

2006-04-11T00:25:00.000-05:00

midnight. -don't want to study -don't have anything fun to do -hungry. sooo --> MIDNIGHT RAMEN TIME =]

going crazyyy

2006-04-10T20:32:00.000-05:00

today: chi604: test. finished quickly. went okay. mail: my new screen protector came in. too bad i cant put it on worth shit and there's massive dust/airbubbles underneath it so it looks ugly as fuck. should've just left the old one on. but at least. i learned my lesssoon.. mis301: business process improvement game. i was a manager. was okay. haha.. it was like consulting.. but it was wayyy too

i can be your superman.

2006-04-09T22:04:00.000-05:00

okay.. today. hmm woke up: went to georgina's to film econ video.... fema/pool scene.. immigration/fence scene. and.. then.. cici's with the group. then dorm. where i went to reliant to kickass in chinese and.. then dorm. massive scheduling crisis. so big things: my probably final schedule. and albert asked me to do brass rings with him shara, and jennifer? so i may do it? but that would mean

long ass day & some seriously BADASS esoterica.

2006-04-08T23:54:00.000-05:00

sorry guys, not much. just main big dealios. i gotta say. music saves my soul me: totally looking for a gal/guy. shit i dont care, just gotta be.. right. just gotta love me, and.. you know.. just.. [i'm speechless]. but i know it's not healthy. must be good on my own. i feel like i have to rather than want to stay single. ugh.. love is a bitch.. argh!! absa & cactus yearbook case comp -we were

letters

2006-04-07T14:54:00.000-05:00

dear cupid, I feel so alone. I really really want someone. except the more I want it, the more I can't have it. love is like crack. it seriously fucks you up. so when you're trying to break off the addiction you go through serious withdrawals. sooo as much as I want it. I will restrain. must get more jobs and more friends. must do more things. so I won't have time to hurt. but isn't hurting good

Dear Girl

2006-04-06T22:14:00.000-05:00

Dear Girl, i want to tell you everything. my past, my secrets, my thoughts, my ideas, my little stupid things that i never tell anyone else.. i want to give you my heart, my soul, my time, my life. but above all, i want to share everything. everything like right now. everything like tomorrow. everything like everyday, every night, every minute, every freaking second, every freaking breath, from

sabrina chou is freaking awesome. i'm sorry i didn't do this before =[

2006-04-06T00:12:00.001-05:00

okay.. so i always write about people i see. and then i realize.. sabrina told me.. i never wrote about her.. and i was like.. 12:03AM | Thu | Apr6 sabrina: cuz you always talk about ppl you see 12:03AM | Thu | Apr6 uselessnanhai: i never SEE YOU 12:03AM | Thu | Apr6 sabrina: & you see me plenty at the mil lab where you live 12:03AM | Thu | Apr6 sabrina: i see you 12:03AM | Thu | Apr6 sabrina:

hmm

2006-04-06T00:12:00.000-05:00

need to finalize a schedule. for next year. need to go to advising sections need to finish up my damned travelling abroad applications need to get a hair cut it's look like this but.. um.. shara.. ouch.. totally replaced me with grace.. for "maker of her day". ouch. yeah, i'll replace god with you for "ruiner of my life". =P. JKKKK <3.

motherfreaking long ass day.

2006-04-05T11:26:00.000-05:00

wow.. 9am-12 noon, 1pm-9pm. long freaking day. i realize i like that phrase.. motherfreaking. haha.. it's not as vulgar. meh. today. up early. and... shower, chi604 - 91 on my quiz. owned translation hw. mis 301 - i keep bombing. we had a class discussion. haha very similar to LTD's [learning through discussion? from english?] wow.. but.. i made a super awesome connection between our freewrite,

guang liang - dou shi ni

2006-04-04T23:56:00.000-05:00

sooo.. 2 posts today.. 1) THIS VID. 2) my daily [follows this one] hit the player to the right to stop it. and play this vid! guang liang's new song. as introduced by leslie. would like to mention.. i also like this song: tong hua, it's the one playing 童话 by 光良忘了有多久再没听到你对我说你最爱的故事我想了很久我开始慌了是不是我又做错了什么你哭著对我说童话里都是骗人的我不可能是你的王子也许你不会懂从你说爱我以后我的天空星星都亮了我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使张开双手变成翅膀守护你

ecto is back up

2006-04-04T11:21:00.000-05:00

hmm ecto is working again. although some bugs. aim was going haywire too. btw i installed the update for mac os x.. now running 10.4.6, maybe that was it? last night. 12.30 am.. leslie calls me and asks for calculus help. haha.. aww.. so cute. haha.. soo got up. busted out ti-89. busted out graphing skills... haha.. it's a wonder how much i remember about calculus. i remember shitting myself on

haha goodness gracious!

2006-04-03T22:54:00.000-05:00

http://kirikou-ki-ri.livejournal.com/87661.html wow. motherfreaking wow. damnit. almost 3rd. oh well. i really would like to work with this team again. though it is impossibly hard to rank team members, i think perhaps shara may have been the greatest contributor. we used her room, her printers, her car, her internet, hahaha.. dang, kinda wish she could do this one.

mon

2006-04-03T16:06:00.000-05:00

oh man.. today wasnt' a bad day. woke up early. got yogurt and breakfast taco for the morning.. and while walking to chi 604, met up with james peng to talk about absa case comp.. and so chi 604 - test.. did rather well. i think i missed a few but oh well, we'll see. mis 301 - test score back.. i failed it again. haha.. fucking a. what the freaking hell. i'm NO GOOD at that freaking class.. welll

april 2

2006-04-02T21:06:00.000-05:00

soo.. today.. april 2. slept like no freaking other. was so tired. damn daylight savings. so really now.. .. got up.. did some studying. walked around. kinsolving for lunch. and then.. walking around.. hba dodgeball tourney. angela + yang + alan + me + somebody else. we got a bye first round.. and then.. in 2nd round.. you had 2/3.. we lost 2 directly. so consolation... was also 2/3.. and we lost

2006-04-02T03:19:00.000-05:00

i need some good blog editing software. ecto.. is kinda.. suckage. i mean it's really nice in terms of it's capabilites.. but it doesnt function very well. marsedit is nice.. and in that.. i just type and go. but it's harder to do colorful stuff in here. damn it =[ so back to marsedit. ::sigh:: ecto you're cool and all. why must you be so fucking.. dickish. just like a hot guy. lots of flash..

2006-04-01T15:01:00.000-06:00

april 1st and march 31st considering i pulled a virtual all-nighter thursday... frday, i was dead-beat tired. chi 604.. no quiz, but got my old one back...68 =[. mis 301 test 2.. hmm.. super hard.. finished super early though. not a good sign.. i knew most of the things, but some were extremely hard. freaking a. i need a good grade!! acc 312.. quiz in class. aced it. then.. emailed professor

2006-04-01T14:40:00.000-06:00

sooo... kristal asks.. sorry for some of the answers.. they're truly ghettoo.. but they're what i feel? 1. What attracts you to a person? What qualities make them "date worthy"? drive. desire. courage. passion. caring. i guess it's all about the heart and the mentality. they say looks change, so can mentality.. and maybe hearts too.. but passions cant? passions != sex. i mean like.. passion for

::sigh:: still drowning.

2006-03-30T14:04:00.000-06:00

chi 604. late like usual. damn it.. quiz. failed. then.. reading quiz. 98. good. biz school - found some people. j2 - lunch with nat, albert, and amy. econ - quiz. study study study.... absa presentation practice. then.. absa consulting presentation. studying mis during absa meeting. then.. kermit consulting group meeting. - tons of hw. mis test tomorrow. fuck. bhp app soon too. amy's leaving

omg.. so .. much.. stuffffff

2006-03-30T00:46:00.000-06:00

chi 604 - late. =[. yesterday's quiz ~83.5?. mis 301 - good stuff. read review.. test friday. acc 312. - new stuff. kinda harder. i got it though. quiz friday. dorm - print out junk. union - got some food.. cause i didnt get a chance to eat lunch. katie <3s taco bell crunchwrap supremes without tomatoes. ugl/fac - met with katie to work on econ paper. worked about 3 hours worth. owned that shit.

way over my head

2006-03-29T12:10:00.000-06:00

I know recently my posts have been curt. I apologize but that's just because this weel has and is hell. I'm way too over booked this week. test this week monday test this week friday test next week monday test next week tuesday quiz tues,wed,thurs, fri quiz fri quiz thurs paper saturday cae competition saturday damn. this is wayyyy tooo freaking much.

ugly day =[

2006-03-28T23:06:00.000-06:00

woke up late. chi 604 - bombed vocab quiz. started using the new smaller book. so hardcore. 96.25 on test. meh. dorm - SC like a mother. owned. was called a hacker. hahahaha. <3 mass lings + mutas. they balance quite well. especially ling dropping.. but meh. haha got my roomie into SC. now.. then. jcl - to get a to-go lunch. biz school to resend files except turns out, they weren't there so had

wow. rapped up

2006-03-28T00:32:00.000-06:00

chi 604. got pwnt on test. mis 301. got pwnt in class. acc 312. finally pwnt something. room - SC - change into superman suit jcl - food. biz school - ubca interview. - i think it actually went really well. dorm - hw. UTC - mccombs kickoff - package is about ~150pgs long. fucking a. Mill Lab - send out case. chill with albert/shobit/shara. Blanton - visit Natasha and Amy. met Katie. Milto's - ate

secrets, secrets. dirty little secrets.

2006-03-26T18:33:00.000-06:00

secrets secrets. dirty little secrets. wow these two.. postsecrets are soo.. perfectly matched. i want to say.. that for the longest time. my entire life minus the few hours right before and during the CSA movie night hitch, that i truly valued life. i'm not say i dont.. but i valued life in the way.. that i realized it was short. so i wanted to find that girl.. the girl that is supposed to

happppy birthday!!

2006-03-26T00:46:00.000-06:00

today: i woke up.. past.. noon.. at like 1pm. laundry. lunch. laundry. damn thing ate my quarters. some MIS hw. SC [i'm an addict]. wow.. i got triple booked today. cousin coming down.. and.. wanted to have dinner. didnt get to though =[. and then.. CSA movie night. and ABSA potluck dinner. ooh yeah. so.. turns out.. absa iron chef cook-off. cooking at anita's apartment. eating at special events

HAHAHAH ENDORSEMENTS! snap!

2006-03-25T03:34:00.000-06:00

last night. i had a wicked dream. my entire dream.. was.. me crying? WTF?!?! i dont know why. i dont know .. WTF?!.. i was just crying in my dream.. and in it i cried for liek 34029834 hrs. dang.. it's kinda sad.. when you DREAM of crying.. but when i woke up, i never felt better. but yeah.. okay.. TODAY.. so video profiled by leslie. away messaged by marlon. supported by YOUTUBE EMPLOYEE VIET

apple video.

2006-03-23T23:34:00.000-06:00

my apple video which i believe should be posted on http://ellenfeiss.net/commercials.php ^_^. thank you emily for filming for me. i owe you big time! link to youtube vid must say i got rave reviews. haha.. but meh.. and.. posted into absa forums. and actually posted on that site. and.. I GOT PROFILED BY LESLIE!. haha.. sweetness. note to self: get whiter background note to self: eliminate

dressing like GQ 101 + multiple bitchrants.

2006-03-23T15:48:00.000-06:00

at the risk of sounded egocentric... today, i like nice. i dont usually. but today, i look nice... ^_^.. of course, i usually have no fashion sense, so i will say i roughly jacked this outfit from GQ. i just happened to have articles of clothing similar to the models. i also had female help. but i still look nice ^_^. hahaha.. okay.. chi604 - meh... more, massively boring grammar. and.. then

amelie.

2006-03-23T00:43:00.000-06:00

couple things i didnt cover.. but happened friday. amelie rocks my socks. i went by my lonesome =[. so freaking hard. one of the best movies i know of now. argh.. so beautiful. i like artsy films. meh. btw, i gave my purse a run today ^_^.. but yeah.. it was good. not that many people. <3 foreign films. i just hope i can wake up tomorrow! oh.. and i ate dinner with natasha at JCL!!.. hahaha..

the wand.

2006-03-22T18:55:00.000-06:00

chi 604 barely late. damnit. today, our prof was reviewed by a department chair? i think it tanked. i feel bad for prof. he kicks ass. anyways. mis 301. meh, as usual. acc 312. meh, as usual.. quiz friday =[. also today, we had a group exercise.. but it was so hard we stayed an extra 30 minutes after class to finish it. got it done. dorm. kinsolving. and i sent out my secondary CIEE app and....

2006-03-21T23:15:00.000-06:00

notice: i got permission to be posted onto http://www.ellenfeiss.net/commercials.php check some of them out. i got a genius idea.. but now i have to make a commercial. soo.. emily is helping me film thursday !! whoo whoo. and.. my 4 line poem about food for ba. yeah it blows. meh. i like it hot, i like it raw and i like it in front of me nope, i aint talking about sex i'm all about the sushi

2006-03-21T22:45:00.000-06:00

in my continual efforts to serve you, i must partially limit you. sorry, i'm cutting off feeds again temporarily. sorrry =[. think of it like the patriot act ^_^. bwahaha. ~<3 eddy

busy busy busy - see no evil.

2006-03-21T20:40:00.000-06:00

i think this is my problem. yup definitely. see tag. emily wants one tooooo.. 8:28PM | Tue | Mar21 emily: ooh. i might want. ^_^ 8:32PM | Tue | Mar21 emily: i like the speak one 8:32PM | Tue | Mar21 emily: definitely omg, what a day, what a day! actually got up early. chi 604 ^_^. was okay. test = 91.25? not bad! and.. i got called on for in-class reading quiz. having not practiced, i obviously

first day of class. after spring break. first class. = test =[.

2006-03-20T16:08:00.000-06:00

argh. hahaha totally couldn't get up =[... well not as early as i wanted to.. but got up early. jcl for breakfast. chinese classroom.. study. wow.. i got owned on the test. i still got a B+ at least.. but i mean.. i think this was my worst freaking test EVER. meh. then.. mis 301. hmm it was okay. haha.. dude today was cooll.. cause i got to sit by shara!! .. yeah.. that's all i remember from

last day of spring break.

2006-03-19T23:13:00.000-06:00

fitful sleeping last night. all i remember was being pissed and throwing shit around. hahaha. w/e. hm.. woke up early. packed my shit up. and drove by i-10 to austin. forgot my damned express bag. anyways.. got to austin. drop shit off. ate at madam ma'am's with dad. he dropped me off. i unpacked. grabbed some stuff. mill lab. scanned biz IT review comments. emailed them. did MIS access 2 hw.

dinner

2006-03-18T20:15:00.000-06:00

god, please. i'm sorry. all i want is a good family dinner. why? why do you do this? what did i do wrong? what do you want me to do? did i fuck up so horribly in my past life? am i satan reborn? why do you hate me? i'm sorry god. please. forgive me. i'm so sorry. just tell me what to do...

whoo! guess what i got?

2006-03-18T18:01:00.000-06:00

so yesterday was actually quite a nice day. i think everyday is a nice day actually. but whatever. last night, after picking up my dad, bringing him home.. he got me a silicone phone cover. and.. a couple cans? of gel.. and.. then.. he got this cool bag. yeah.. i jacked it though ^^. but yes. aldo tags. ____ _____ bag. hmm.. i dont know.. lotsa nice toys coming up. today. woke up a bit late,

my day.

2006-03-17T16:28:00.000-06:00

today: last night couldn't sleep. started watching "i'm sorry, i love you". and started working on this post and power on my powerbook went out. omg crap almost lost it all. so went to bed late. so obviously woke up late. soo.. deposit $150 from bestbuy! whoo! and calling kristal. to willowbrook instead. massive shopping. got those youthaids/aldo chains i wanted. natasha likes em!. NO reef

blogger fixings

2006-03-17T03:50:00.000-06:00

yes, its 4 AM. yes, i'm working on my blog yes, i own a blogger t-shirt yes, i'm psycho. that said, i've added some temporary analysis tools and am also shutting off RSS feeds due to minor scripting problems. argh! [edit::] i've somehow created a workaround for those problems. so feed is re-enabled. <3 and enjoy!

ambiguity

2006-03-16T18:19:00.000-06:00

in regards to the last post: "The truth is more important than the facts." - Frank Lloyd Wright in regards to this post: new song up. guess it. it's a freaking classic. really rings my heart!! ooh.. why am i such a sap? my thoughts today: Never thought that I could feel; So alive and oh so real, I was caught up in a storm so tough by you. It amazes me, how blind someone can be; Love was right

sometimes i wonder...

2006-03-16T12:28:00.000-06:00

sometimes.. do you ever wonder if you truly know what you're saying? do you truly know the power of love? how you can't just say i love you.. or if you do say it, do you truly mean it? why are the divorce rates in the US so high? what is the real meaning behind it? what is the truth? haha i think i've got a story...

ideal motivation; practical action

2006-03-15T21:43:00.000-06:00

sometimes i just wish i had someone to call. so freaking miserable within.. this will be a good soul cleansing read. it contains truths about me you will probably not know. it will change what you see. you have been warned. yes, you have been warned.prom is in the air. people are hooking up [lots of couples] and today.. i thought about marriage. love, love, ahh you are everywhere.. well i've

errands. errands. errands.

2006-03-15T20:34:00.000-06:00

ciee app is in! realized i forgot proof of US residency. will fax that in tomorrow. woke up at like noon and to the office, i go!. help mom with her headset at the office... and then.. taking her car for a joyride =D.. i drove 45 minutes to chinatown.. to deposit a check at metrobank. and then went grocery shopping for my mom.. and picked up dinner for the family. haha.. i feel old. i was in

past memories/history.

2006-03-14T20:40:00.000-06:00

do you ever wonder what happens the few seconds before something bad happens? i do. i wonder what it would be like, the second right before it all goes away. RIP, fellow longhorns. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- waking up at 2.21 pm. wasting my life.. meh.. but home is kinda boring.. i'm tired of just relaxing. i want to take

home ?sweet? home

2006-03-13T23:03:00.000-06:00

this makes me so sad. but i think it's the way i wanna die. doing what i think is right. --------------------------------------------------------------- man i.. i remember how i was just like.. oh i can't wait to go home, i havent been home.. all this.. i wanna go home stuff and now that i'm here.. i dont know.. --------------------------------------------------------------- yesterday, i forgot

yesterday, i forgot to mention.. the UTC was locke...

2006-03-13T17:42:00.000-06:00

yesterday, i forgot to mention.. the UTC was locked down.. but james, will, and i actually figured out a way to sneak into the UTC.. and then we just ran around.. and we found an open room 4.132 and we were gonna watch a movie, but got caught. damn =[. i barely woke up. at like 8.15... and it turns out andrew was leaving at 8.45. i've never packed and got my shit ready so fast. i just pretty

chaos in my mind. chaos in my heart. chaos in my soul.

2006-03-13T01:42:00.001-06:00

woke up at around ~11.30. james and will came over, will taking a shower. got dressed.. and then tap house for lunch. james got some jimmy johns, eating with will and i at tap house. and we were just playing chinese chess for tons. back to my dorm.. chill. played a new card game called cassino. watched a little bit of to live - a frekaing good chinese movie. dinner at jimmy john's. more cassino.

chaos in my mind. chaos in my heart. chaos in my soul.

2006-03-13T01:42:00.000-06:00

my skepticism on love - where's my 愛人

2006-03-12T03:17:00.000-06:00

well.. today.. waking up at 5 pm i guess.. really helps my brain rest. and then shifts it into overdrive when i really get awake. looking back.. i think i know why i'm so skeptical on love. or ever finding my true one. i think i'm gonna put a new song up =D. this was kinda like esther's follies. except esther's had more stuff, and magic. do you know the feeling? the feeling you get when.. you

free day. start of spring.

2006-03-11T02:48:00.000-06:00

edit: I MOTHERFREAKING DELETED MY IMMEDIATE HOMEWORK FOLDER. and lost all my hw. mother f'er. damn it. chi 604 - late again. i can't make it on time anymore. wtf? AND THAT IS IT i'm DONNNNNEEEE - springg break. except for my meeting with Make-a-Wish later.. as of right now i am done. <3 <3. i roughly considered moving the links to the top.. but then no one will ready any of this =[. soo i'll

insanely awesome day

2006-03-10T00:14:00.000-06:00

EDIT: ECON VIDEO WORKS 40 seconds long. made in 1 take. done in < 2 hours before due. edit2:: americans and their geography main spiel: okay, today kicked ass. tiffany took me to the mall and we hung out drinking tea like our asian parents do.. haha.. and i made the tea.. whoo!!! and listening to old music, catching up and old times. and oh man.. haha i feel all grown up. heehee.. even though.

there's a tornado

2006-03-09T10:26:00.000-06:00

and somewhere within the swirling abyss are my words lost.

my biggest problem, imho

2006-03-09T03:03:00.000-06:00

i think the greatest difficulty in my life so far and ongoing is finding a home. finding something to go back to. ie: organization. ie: physical house ie: somebody's arms =D ie: some hobby whatever it is.. i would like something. i thought i had an organization.. that was so awesome. really... i guess now that i've been there for a while, it's not such a great organization. i was just naïve. i

i shall be continually updating as i write. test, test.

2006-03-08T10:49:00.000-06:00

hmmm chi 604 - late again like always. argh. like 15 minutes late. =[. mis 301 - same old same old. boring old stuff - no class friday! acc 312 - same old same old. boring old stuff - no class friday! i've been trying to get backlinks to work, but for the life of me i can't get it. anyways.. i think i've got it partially set up correctly.. so right now.. gonna backlink to somebody else and see

exclusion

2006-03-08T00:24:00.000-06:00

i really just want to exclude you from my life. but it would be horribly bad of me as a person. damnit. why are the good things always so sinful? dorm - just placed two 2v2v2v2 bgh games on SC. was toss first one. toss second one. owned both games. bwahaha. ;-) testing myself.

my rent dvds and coexist tshirt in.

2006-03-07T22:36:00.000-06:00

sooo.. today - hmm another new format.. because.. the old one was too drawn out =D. and otherwise.. maybe mail out ciee app today? or tomorrow? or really soon? chi 604 - long class. not much. 97.5 on test. highest i've gotten in a while. second highest overall.. yay!. and.. we had a reading quiz. i totally did not practice. but i got picked outta nowhere.. because i was one of the luckier ones

a revolution

2006-03-07T01:55:00.000-06:00

today okay.. so possibly thinking of reverting back to old system of posting. but i will give this a run. or actually i could combine the two.. yes.. that is what i shall do!. bismallah!! *btw* yesterday i got my rent poster.. i will be posting it up.. today.. i got the ticky tacky stuff too.. some kind of double sided wall mount. gonna put it up.. haha... anyone wanna come over? i've also

2006-03-05T23:35:00.000-06:00

today i shall try posting in a new format, with regards to time. i will probably be going to a new layout soon. i don't like this one very much. as well as a new song - ming tian hui geng hao. and also, possibly re-instating my flickr badge. which i used ot have but no longer. i think th enext layout will just be huge and plain. not anything with frames. we'll see how that goes. long ass list for

2006-03-05T00:21:00.000-06:00

first off. thanks natasha.. you're the best sis ever. =D. don't know what i would do without you =D amazing it race. on a whole, was fun. was good. loved it. wow.. okay so i was eating the free lunch.. fajitas.. man.. every bite.. my heart was cringing in pain. i felt like i was gonna have a heart attack. stroke or something and mother freaking die. dude.. wtf? okay so we were tearing along..

2006-03-04T02:06:00.000-06:00

woke up f'ing late. sooo.. chi 604. - super late. freaking a mis 301. - class sucks. more hw. acc 312. - class was okay. easy stuff. kinsolving - lunch with june, sharon, alex SSB - dropped off financial aid form for studying abroad. mccombs - dropped off UBCA application mail - i got a cystic fibrosis letter donation letter. they sent me name stickers for letter envelopes and such.. in hopes i

2006-03-02T21:07:00.000-06:00

chi 604. regular old stuff. kinsolving. - long philosophical talk about religion. while eating delicious food called tammy. - voicemail econ cram. hard stuff. econ test. i got pwnt. called tammy. scheduled up photo shoot. atrium. harass june. chinese homework absa meeting - mercer consulting. met a new pal =D. ireneeee jcl - eat with june, sam, emoleee mill lab - hw. gregory gym - csa bball. they

2006-03-01T23:27:00.000-06:00

i'm gonna fucking go insane.. and just.. snap. ARGH MOTHER FUCKING ASSHOLES. =D. my neighbors arerandy mcdandy and luis sanchez biggest fucking assholes in the world in the world. argh. so today chi604 - got there early, started today's hw. yeah i'm a nerd. whatever. didnt win presentation, still got + 5 points. anyways.. yeah.. good stuff mis301 - just chilled. listened. freewrite. i hate

2006-03-01T00:48:00.000-06:00

chi 604 - we did our "chinese theatre". james and i both performed together the chapter. another group was really good. they brought props and everything. mill lab - emailed many people, got lotsa stuff done. holy crap. was not this productive. in a long time. i like "i don't wanna dance alone" by one voice. good song. got the irs 1089-t form my parents wanted. got so much doneee. kinsolving -

2006-02-28T00:00:00.000-06:00

woke up freaking early. it's gonna be a longgg day =D. first off.. regular shower/get dressed JCL for a "big breakfast" RLM - walked with benny halfway, got there early, studied chinese: test today, and got out my laptop for the first time in a long time. i think past two weeks? maybe just week? i haven't brought the laptop out of my room? RLM - chinese test. did well. finished early.

2006-02-26T22:48:00.000-06:00

what a wondrously relaxing but totally unproductive [in term's of schoolwork]. all i had to do was really study.. and didnt get that done. woke up. chipotle with june. carothers with june. music + hw. metro with june. music + coffee + hw. madam ma'am's with june. alex. sharon. CJ. dorm - change. gregory with abed. note to self. gregory totally kicks ass. note to self. cancel gprs data plan.

2006-02-26T02:17:00.000-06:00

i just watched lord of war. i believe it was based off a true story. it was probably one of the best films i've seen in a while, and definitely makes me more... i feel more complete? damn good movie.

2006-02-25T23:34:00.000-06:00

mom called, woke me up, i said call back laterrr. and back to bed. tiff called. punk, woke me up.. at 1pm =D soo.. then.. just .. chilled and lounged around in the room for 15 minutes max? bought 2 wide-screen rent 2005 dvd's and a rent poster back to bed. =D today is my day. while in bed.. i just laid there chilling, planning my day. and plans somehow formed to become:: 1) eat 2) haircut 3)

2006-02-25T01:23:00.000-06:00

dude.. that was like 2 hrs of intensive pingpong? or maybe 1.5 hrs. and not just intensive pingpong. intensive ass kicking by jae. followed by 5 wendy chicken nuggets and a frostie. and on a separate thought. <3!

2006-02-24T22:02:00.000-06:00

what a day. hah.. what a day. woke up moderately early. shower. chinese 604 - went okay mis 301 - access hw. almost finished, didn't quite get there. hahaha i think shara was saving me a seat!! acc 312 - went over my test. i made a stupid mistake. should've been 97. but whatever. parlin - dropped off my roommate's rhe 306 paper. kinsolving - with june and CJ bus - to RLM with june RLM - june has

2006-02-23T20:53:00.000-06:00

i look fine on the outside, but inside i feel like shit. have you ever seen someone just completely distraught, hair everywhere, tears on down the face and totally "gross". gross not as in digusting but you know?. they're totally frustrated, worried, absolutely anxious, completely psychotic, clueless, and just about to tip over. i feel like that inside. i feel something is missing, wrong, or

2006-02-22T23:37:00.000-06:00

christine recommends i change my song. actually, she more or less demands it. i'm pondering whether to give in or to steadfastly refuse. =D chi 604 - went by alright mis 301 - test final score.. = 125 multiple choice + 39 essay = 164/250 total. acc 312 - we get scores back tomorrow. new stuff.. easy stuff dorm - chill, aim, emails reliant - knock out some chinese hw JCL - lunch - i saw cindy..

2006-02-21T23:30:00.000-06:00

i got 11 phone calls.. from one person in < 1.5 hrs. i feel loved!!!! hahaha.. i'm a dweeb. -jack calls 350 for google -sharon called 300 a while back, never marked it down. -i met someone new today, from my econ class. she's totally cool. -i want to sign up for habitant for humanity -i got business cards, for absa consulting. rebecca got em for us. YAY! -oh.. and today RENT COMES OUT whoo whoo

2006-02-20T22:09:00.000-06:00

finally.. put a new skin up. not mine at all. i just made the many many freaking multiple adjustments. hope you enjoy. i think it fits the song very well. anyways. have at it =D. i may get around to opening comments. --edit: hahaha.. comments were enabled. i just had them hidden. --edit2: and damn that took forever. blogger couldn't automatically inject them or some bs so i had to manually

2006-02-20T12:31:00.000-06:00

june says i have random spots of insightfulness in the extensive fits of emotional instability. haha.. i concur. i may develop the weblog around this new central theme. it seems kinda interesting. in the midst of hell, you find peace. i need a word. a perfect word that resembles chaos and organization. paradox? not quite.. oxymoron is a cool word.. but too oftenly used, too trite...

2006-02-19T18:17:00.000-06:00

i saw munich.. based off of real life events. so again today: -helped shivani with accounting -studied my own accounting -lunch -about to study chinese -dominoes later? =D -more studying -dinner -more study. damnit. -new song: gary jules - mad world [from donnie darko; thanks to zinnia for introducing it to me] ; old: markus - superlove you get me everytime why'd you have to be so cute it's

2006-02-19T14:05:00.000-06:00

one of these days i'm gonna write some super badass thought-provoking philosophical post and then kill myself. ::sigh:: hope is the most dangerous thing of all. it overwhelms reason. but since life is too short anyways, might as well fuck reason and have some fun. hope away =D

2006-02-19T12:09:00.000-06:00

hahaha.. postsecret. makes me sad. now that i've slept on it, i must say i've given it considerate thought and i am very very unhappy with the results of the bizIT competition. i am quite confident some form of leniency was given to the 2nd place group. i do not feel that if you have bullshit financials, you should make it into the financials. especially if you're excuse is that your team is

2006-02-19T02:16:00.000-06:00

so instead of doing my crap like i'm supposed to.. i instead go to roberts to visit christine. we watch.. lost in translation.. very awesome but incredibly painfully slow movie. while playing dominoes 1st round - to 100 - christine wins =D 2nd-4th round - to 250 - i win. =D. payback timmeee haha.. but she's pretty good. i think i'm gonna go play with her more often. i love that game. a girl

2006-02-18T20:11:00.000-06:00

definitely unsatisified with turn out. 1 - griffin consulting 2 - six sigma 3 - phi chi theta 4 - t&g solutions 5 - gaej i feel strongly bsed. and i did watch all the presentations. griffin, phi chi theta were all respectable competitors. i feel they can be construed better in this competition. six sigma i strongly do not feel should be up there. let's walk through the q&a session. judges: "

2006-02-18T17:29:00.000-06:00

sine this morning at approximately 9 AM i have been consumed by the business of bizIT finals. Getting here, team GAEJ was the first to perform. i think we did rather well. afterwards, i watched the rest of the team. Six Sigma T&G Consulting Griffin Consulting Phi Chi Theta hmm.. i think we placed well. joanna and grace left. alan and i watched the teams. 5 minute setup 20 minute presentation

2006-02-17T01:13:00.000-06:00

wow.. bizIT IS TOMORROW WOOOO today chi604 - same ol' same ol' media services - picked up clicker eco 304L - boring tap house - tapioca milk team and homework SHIVANI TIME - 6-pack and listening to music, lying in grass, bitching about life absa meeting - inroads. bs [imho] presentation on networking bizIT meeting - work work work. massive work. best part. we're practicing in a cba room. guy

2006-02-16T01:05:00.000-06:00

yesterday was in fact awesome. at night it turned out great, and the love from yesterday actually poured into today making this possibly one of the greatest days ever. yess nessss!. but yeah.. song of the moment: frozen. if i had only listened to myself, i would be so in the clear right now. damnit =[. whatever. what a day. chi 604. regular old class mis 301. test. failed. seriously. acc 312.